over and over again...

last year of 2004 i had a complicating decision to make...

since im currently workin' to death to this highest-paying call center,
back then im pissed off with my life...coz' a call-center work will not exactly be

as successful as what we all think... yup! big pay, worry free coz' its an easy job, rhythmic tasks and ul meet different kinds of people ( the so-called vampires) in all walks of life...smokin' their hearts out of the infamous

marlboro lights and sipping the hot nescafe coffee, u'l hear people chatting over a head phone in front of a pc...

doing their respective american accent...talking with the dumbest people on earth, the americans... (well, not all!)

but inspite all that... there will come a time that ul get bored of how your life works... not having enough sleep, doing same thing over and over again...and after u drooled youself workin very hard, still you will see yourself doin' same routine

without u being promoted...

but really not being promoted at work is a prob for me...going back to the complicating decision, is me wanting to study again...

and yup after all the thinkin' i came up with a decision that will change my life.. i decided to become a student again, hoping to become a nurse...having this plans of workin' abroad, get paid real big....

without me doin' same thing over and over again!

5 years older.....

im back! im back!....
its been quite a long time since iv done ds...wel i jz wonder y...older man (jz about 5 years older i mean) interests me most!

way back august of last year...at west! d so-called highest paying call cnter...where d vampires worked to kick their ass off for money...somethin' happens....chemistry burst! beautiful faces reigns!

at an hour lunch at 4am... suddenly as i turn my face close to the windows of the night sky ( i mean morning....) a man sitted, simple yet as i may say a beautiful face reigns that turned me on....
days had passed i effortly hurried myself to the superior people of d callcentr which is infact my friends... without hesitation i asked them of the so-called man at the window... then they flaunted with great excitement that the mans name is ....(i dont hav to mention the name here right?) hahahah! wel let me jz name him "KIN"...for whatever reason of naming..i jz simply thought of that one...

after which.... i hurriedly run to my pc to look for his name in the chat room.....a room where all the vampires chats their hearts out...and at last i finally crossover with his name, well i mean his chatname...it was like this .."BBKIN"...well anyways jz wnt to share that...

well let me jz cut this story short...the thing is my frend is the one who is head over heels for him they actually know each other and obviously this frend of mine introduced me to him......bt stil after all that... my looks and my flirtiness caught his expressive eyes...then to my surprise, he message me through the chat thing...so since i like him too...we get along very well chatting about everything under the sun... and as what iv known from him his already 5 years older than me and he is married as well....

the sad thing is he is somewhat the guy that i can call the perfect one...bt then since i have my respect to myself...i take away the mere fact to be with him... we kinda' have this passionate relationship bt it all ends there....nothin' more....nothin' less...

the good thing is ...he's still there for me to say hello... once in a while...bt honestly i will never forget this guy...he's the man... i love how the way he kiss me, caress me....and u knw?.....blah! ....blah!....blah!!!!....

so thats the end of the story....

older man really are very passionate, already knows the true meaning of life....responsible.....and how to handle a relationship!... and especially good in b**....

and thats what i call a man... 5 YEARS OLDER!!!!