poor me !
sat mownin' means BOREDOM, and BOREDOM means this...
READ BETWEEN THE LINES...im just so sad bwt wt i feel now...wel in fact im d only one who shud be BLAMED for ds pain i cnt evn bear....
at first i resisted d mere fact that we are getting along...dt i knw something special lingers between the 2 of us...w/c is in fact qouted by my bestfrend as "HINDI PWEDE"...hehehe! w/c is my mistake as well of recognizing wt i feel for him...
...bt then it is way back december when i sed to myself ...this is d happiest day of my life...i trusted him that we had this mutual thing for each other....im very overwhelmed everytime im with him talkin' bwt anythin' under d sun, gettin' drunk, dance all nyt...we had a lota' fun!...jz by seeing his eyes and his face completes me, completes my day... "iv learned how to love and stil i love him... willing to let go bt stl learning"...and its way too hard...
i was jz with him recently...and by jz knowin' d fact that il be seeing him again after 2 months or so...makes me real nervous...teary-eyed as i may say...coz i knw for myself that i hate him...and i dont knw how wil i hide d pain i bear and to show him dt im ok...
d day with him is bwt to end...he did talk to me bt then i refused coz another word dt wil come out of me..means crying and its my pride dt dictates me not to let him see me cry in pain..bcoz i knew dt he will never be mine...i wnt to believe dt i cn make it real...I MISS HIM SO MUCH, IT HURTS! bt then i realized dt.. yup! mayb time will tell and im jz praying dt time will vanish d pain i bear and d love i thought was real..... :c
posted by biggie_in2u at 4:46 PM
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